Life with a PURPOSE

I did the something, something that i haven't did it for 1 year.
I thought i couldn't do it again.
But it was really a released.
Finally i release.
I never thought it will happen.

There's no one.
No one was there to comfort me.
I really hope you were there when i needed you most.
I finally know my feelings for you is true.

No wonder people said, loving someone isn't that easy.
I don't know why is this happening to me.
All i want to know, will you be there when i needed you most?
It hurts me more when i am hurting you.
I know I am very xiao qi, but i scare i will lose you.

Everytime, i am 'emotional' i just hope that you will turn around and notice me.
I really don't want to be alone.
It feels like everything is gone.
I really hate it when i made you angry and sad.
I really hope that you will be there when i needed you most.

Maybe i always only cared how i felt and never really understand you.
I really don't want those things that upset you to happen.
When you loved someone, you only wanted him/her to be happy.
Maybe i not that wei da.

I felt really happy when you joked with me and talk to me.
I just hate the feeling of losing someone.
I really hope, you can talk to me now.
Maybe just being there.
Just being there, talking doesn't matters.
I just really hope you were here now.

I got so much things to say, but i just don't know how to say it.
I really regretted.
Everytime, i acted angry cause i know you will ask whether i am okay.
When i left today, i really don't want to leave.
I so hope that you will stop me.

I thought after turning back to school, i can just said that i'm joking.
But when i reach the school, I don't know why i couldn't do so.
Maybe you think i am so xiao qi, because of you cared about the non - living things then my feelings.
But i really hope you were there, when i needed you most.

Maybe just one caring word from you is enough.
Even others said 100 or even 1000 words can't even have the same effect as the one word from you.
I know i am not worthly, there are so many people out there that is better than me.
They could just have done better than me.
Maybe they are bring you more joy than i can.
I like only bring you troubles.

When you said i am disturbing you.
I know, you are very angry.
But i really wanted to talk to you.
I really hope you were there, when i needed you most.

No one is there. I am afraid. I am lost. I need you.