Life with a PURPOSE

What does emo means?

type 1: depressed and sad. range from slightly moody to suicidal.
type 2: cultural fashion people who wanna look cool.

From B.goh. (thanks for helping me typing out)
Maybe I act emo to make ppl pity me?
I don't think I am sad, I have no more feelings.
One of my wants, is to find back the defination of humanly love.
I even tried to find song that can bring me back to that feeling, but I can't feel anything.

One day, I tried to save one friendship.
I tried to show concern to that friend"ed".
Instead of answering, i get a somehow warning of "don't try anything funny, i wouldn't fall for that".
I tried so hard just thinking to myself, I must take the first step.
But, the result is just another disappointment.
Why will I do to save a friendship when I know this kind of result I will get.
I flared up. To me it seems like the other party is wrong.
But I don't know. It could be my fault.
No one fault. MY FAULT that I even thought of giving in.

Today's worship was great.
Even song linked up with each other.
2 highlight songs.
In christ alone and reflection song, "you're still faithful".

I thank you Lord for everything.
The air i breath.
The food i eat.
The bed i lie in.
Every steps that i take.