Life with a PURPOSE

so quiet in the night. i felt so lonely and depressed. i suddenly start to ask myself, why am i living on this earth. there's seems like nothing for me to do on this earth. i lost all my meaning on living. i can't see my future. i can't see what am i going to do next. its so dark. my life is so meaningless. like on this earth for 16 years plus. i didn't nothing that is beneifical to the earth. i like a rubbish on the earth. i am really lost. i lost my soul. onli left this body sitting infront of the computer typing all this... i wasted my life. i no life le. nothing seems to be moving. i can't move on. now all i thinging is about ending this life. which seems so meaningless. my vision is blur. i am a failure. today make a big mistake at work place. hai, the worst is i disappointed God. He loved me so much. but i fail him again and again. and nothing seems to change. i am here to waste the material that is more worthy for the society. living on this earth, stealing others air and food. hai, just a trash on earth. my future is none....