Life with a PURPOSE

The most tiring thing for me isn't how's life. But being tired of myself. I don't know what the **** I want. Floating here and there and seems like that wouldn't be a ending. Can you ever imagine??? Thinking over same stuff over and over again. Searching for the same few answer for a few times??? Maybe next time i will write down the answers so I wouldn't think over the same thing again.

Life so "calm" now. Except some downfalls. Feeling so guilty, when I did not do those stuff they i used to sing in worship. The next phrase is coming, my poly life. I can be tough if I don't depend on God.

Even you wanted me to stop, i couldn't.
Treat it as i'm doing it in secret.
Just let me do it.
When the time pass, I will know what is needed to be done.
But you must give me chance.
Please don't shut the door.
Cause I will be at the door waiting.
Until you and I am ready.
Even you might not open, or i might not be there.
But I still need a chance.
So I will not regret, and lose peacefully.
Be Happy, cause then i will be Happy.
It really hurts when you are feeling bad, miserable, confuse...

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