Life with a PURPOSE

Today actually no school.
Actually is a replacement for polling day.
Instead of sleep at home, i went to Jurong Island as a field trip for geography.
I had lots of fun on the bus but when we reached the Island declaration station.
The admin there didn't register our name.
Six of us.
Then we wait and wait.
Finally done!
Chiong into the bus.
Lost my seat.
Sit we a girl.
Beside is smrt.
She keep highing.
Reached the orsis.
Guide came up.
Drive around the Island
Actually thought can see melting iron
Dun have.
Went to the gallery.
Walk here walk there
Finish, chiong down the stairs as there are alot of ppl waiting for the lift.
Disturb the ppl taking lift by going to every floor and press the button.
Buy 100plus.
Go back to woodlands.
Then say hi to everyone on the way.
Got one lorry drive lost control of the lorry.
Home.

Most important: God protect us from harm and make it a wonderful day.
Sob, result for prelim quite poor. especially emaths.

Prelim finally over le! Yea! Chiong computer until very tired. Worst of all, i skip care group because i was tired! Hai yo. I wanted to thank Lord for being with me through the exam. I also wanted to be with Him even after exam. I feel weird that i only can concentrate on the Lord during exam. After exam, spiritual life abit falling. This shouldn't happen. Thrusday i had my a maths prelim. I didn't even prepare for it cause i not taking it for o level. I spent the 2 hours of time slack in the exam hall. Felt like waste of time. But over then over le. Monday the results will be back and don't know whether i will do well. If can, is a miracle from God. If didn't, i will tell myself to do better the next time.

After the exam, i went to my friend's house to play soccer. We went to the carpark beside the HDB. We had lots of fun but my little brother was hit hardly by the ball. Ouch! Felt numb. Unfortunately, the fun didn't last. The police car came. Arh, lucky nothing happened. Thanks to my friend. He is a good speaker. Haha! Had alot of fun.

Thank You
~ guiding me life
~ being there when i was weak
~ answering my doubts and question
~ guarding my health
~ most of all, BEING IN MY LIFE

Sorry for
~ letting You down
~ didn't really concentrate on you
~ hurting Your people
~ didn't fully live out the life of Yours

Changes:
~ God concentrated rather then people and earthly stuff.
~ Maybe to leave to prevent more hurting.

It's sunday. But this time something doesn't gone right. Early in the morning at 6am. I woke up from my dream (i think rather i nightmare).
~Dreamland~
I was awaken in the dream when my sister in the dream wanted to see the sms I recieved.
I asked her to don't disturb.
Then i woke up in the real world.
The dream goes like this...
I was in a outing in the forest. And also in class.
Teacher chasing after me for my chinese compo correction. (the correction alreadi handed in real world)
Then i saw annabel(kenna's friend) and kenna.
I don't know the details.
But the most shocking part is I saw someone i liked kissing a guy because she was touched for what the guy done for her.
I was infront of them when they started kissing.
In a spilt second i ran and cried.
Then wake up. Lucky in real world didn't cry...

Then that day abit sick.
Then bad temper.
The the service abit harewire for me.
I reminder everyone except bonnie who is the bulletin leader.
Then so toot...
Hai, everything went wrong.
Didn't go debrief and went home to sleep.

My email change to holy_cloud@hotmail.com. Sorry sorry...

Keep a distance from me everyone.
I am a cheater, near me means hurt.
I am hurting everyone that is good to me.
Lord this time you take control, I's sorry.
One million sorrys also can't repay Yours unconditional love.
My life take it, gotta change.

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This time i really found out.
I am just a illusion.
I gotta start my life back again.
I can't be forever weak, i must be strong.
From the start i should be the one who can lend a listening ears.
But i fallen. I fall.
Everytime i tell myself i can make it, i shouldn't be feeling like that.
But i seem that i just can't help it.
Life continues, people change.
You are you and I am I.
Why???
Forget it, stand strong.
With God help.
Gotta study hard.

STAND STRONG!!!

Instead of making you happy, i am you sad.
Instead of treasuring you i take you for granted.
Instead of protecting you, i hurt you.
Instead of helping you i make it more worst.
Instead of treating you normal,i treat you adnormal.

WAHAHA CHAO YI! IF THIS POST GOING TO HURT MORE I'M SORRY...

Cause i don't know wat to say le. I just think that what is going on.
Promise: Let God fill my gaps.

This time, let me cherish you.
This time, let me protect you.
This time, let me bring joy.
This time, is the time...

Only from failure i can find success...
Only from sorrow i can find joy...
Only from fright i can find bravery...
Only from falling i can stand....
Only from pain i can be healthy...
Only from losing you i can find you...
Only from God i can be okey...
Without You, i am nothing.
And leaving You bring me sorrows and tears.
Only You, Only you...

Everyday, life is hinting me i should let go.
Usually, is that tiny little step that do wonders.
Hai, life continue and people change with time.
Everybody will change but will you?
Yes, you will change but who will to change to?
Everytime i feel that feeling, the ending always the same.
Is either you get hurt, i get hurt or both get hurt.
But no matter what i do i feel that somehow, i am always wrong.
Slacking like no one's business when prelims is reaching.
Haha, if i can enter poly is sure God's miracle.
Everytime i think, i hope thing to change.
But everytime i think, i don't put the effort to change.
So i would rather don't think.
Will it be fair if someone worked so hard for something and you did nothing and get what you don't deserve?
Life, where are you?
Tell me your meaning?
Tell me what you want?
Everyone have a dream, but not me
Everyone have ambition but not me
Everyone do their part except me.

Hai, thinking is sorrowful. Don't think le. Chao yi, WHAT DO YOU WANT!!!!

I was joking only. How would i? But if the post is real, it is really a sad case. That why i said those things. But dun take it so serious. Just the same as the bookmark, NO ONE IS PERFECT... TAKE AND BREAK AND TAKE EASY. WE REST FOR A LONG JOURNEY..