Life with a PURPOSE

Read the other posts i posted ever since i started this blog.
Everything seems to change.
Humans are like only cherish things that they don't have.
I become so negative today.
Everything so negative.
My heart so empty.
How i wish i am a bird, that i can fly and don't need to worry for tomarrow.
How i wish i am a fish, that i can swin in the blue ocean.
How i wish i have no brain, that i don't need to think.
All this show how weak my mind is.
If only life is like 2.4km.
I can just run with the determination i have when i run during 2.4km.
Where will i end?
Why am i on this earth?
Why am i sinning when i know is wrong and continue?
NEGATIVE NEGATIVE
Once read that life is meaningless for those who are pessimastic.
Will i be the only one that couldn't go to a polytechnic when my whole class can?
Will there be a day that, i will be totally alone?
Will there be a day that i will regret forever?
Will there be a day that i will be brain dead?
WEAKNESS SURFACING, WEAK WEAK WEAK!
encouragements are just words, do they really works?
why i can't find the meaning of life?
why why why?
LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA

Maybe the past should be the past.
Even it is regreting, but hearing that is already comforting.
At least is worth it.
All the best^.^
Maybe friends will be better.
Other can tok about it the next time.

Today english oral, conversation is 3 topic. 1st: "Some thing you didn't expect", "Is fun needed", "Is a person of higher position should treat someone with authority or friendly". Hai, don't wanna think le...

Today went school, don't know why moody sia. Is like i not controlling myself. I just felt so sianz suddenly. Then i so quiet in the morning. Unusual sia! Then during chinese lesson my teacher siad i looked as if i depression. The said i dump by girlfriend is it. Then i stunned! She is a funny teacher. =) Now i regreted not fighting for my CCA points. Now i can't even get a single deduction. Sob SOB! Hai, i always only know how to talk about don't do. Sianz. Today O level english oral. Must score sia, or else don't need to think to advance to a high level of studies...

Something to share:
If you want to know how much God loves you. When i rains, try to grab the raindrops. For every raindrop you caught, is how much you love God. But those which you missed and landed on the ground is how much God loves you.
Moral: From this we can see how much God loves us.

Haha, quite happy today cause i found back you. I found what i really wanted. Even you are younger then me. You just taught me so much on life. Yea, life is beautiful so smile. =D!!! Haha, tomarrow biology practical test. Hmm, the problem is i scare cannot get the CCA points. Toot!!!

God thank you for everything. You are always there for me. Carry me when i am down and be with me all the time.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
1 cor 13:7
WAH! suddenly forget wat i wanted to type...

Stream of emotions flow through my "sharingan". For the 2nd time i cried for someone. Hope this is the last time. I never ever want to feel like this again. It only hurt, but is it worth waiting for? I don't know... First time i cried for being a diappointment to my mother. Imagine a guy crying. He is a hum right. The problem is after i cried, no big improvement but as slacky as ever.
Hai, really must buck up or else will die. My mei already doing her best, as a gor i should be a example. Hai, seems like she is more mature then me. WAHAHA!!! Today, i am dead. I had my physics practical prelim. The last answer should be 10 and i wrote 0.1... Die liao... Don't know can pass anot. Worst of all, 22/8 will be my o level english oral. Hm... Must speak more english these few days...

Signing off....

When i recieve that sms. This word "why" just continue to flood my already bloated brain.
Why did i over do it?
Why can i only bring sorrows then joy?
Why am i feeling this way?
Why why why!
Three years... I will be like the way entering amry. Hai, how i wish i have a brain that can don't think i what i don't want. But i seems like, i just can't stop thinking. From a start i think i already isn't doing and feeling the right way. What do i want? I am like someone who just hurt others one after another. I just knew something that i never expected. 3 things just shot me down. O level chinese, blah blah blah and this....
Maybe, this will bring a stop. Lets take a big breath and continue with our lifes. No matter what will happened in the end, i will be glad for we are friends...

WO MEN YI BEI ZI DE XI FU YUE DING...

Sorry, negative things just keep appearing in my head. Your friend rocks, she teach me the lesson. I think i should seriously reflect. But i think i am weak, few strikes and i hide. Sorry, only word i can say. I am hum, i cannot be the one that other people can. 3 years, yue ding. Can it be the same as the song. Is it really that strong, when i already retreat just when someone point out those that normally people won't?

CHAO YI IS HUM!... TOOT! WAHAHA!
God, use me, guide me, empower me.

My studies like toot. Will it be fair when i pass my o level? When i slack and others worked so hard. How i just wish i have no brain to think. And again, i am duo luo.

He gave me so many chances and i didn't cherish it. But instead it became worst. Do I deserve these chances??? So many question floating in my mind.

QUESTIONS??? QUESTIONS??? QUESTIONS???

Childish me, must face the turth of life. When then can i be spirtually mature and mentally mature.